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7 billion personalities. 7 billion realities

and here i am. one person. a singular perspective.

like an ant exploring a field of grass, thinking it’s the whole world.

i cannot fanthom what’s beyond the grass…

i heard they have concrete pavements where humans walk.

i heard there are tall walls that have multiple universes in them where humans live…

ive heard so many stories about the outside world from my ant friends who have not died from being stepped on… yet.

those who survive say the world out there is risky.

you are delicate and fragile.

the world… it’s unpredictable.

it’s so loud it frightens you.

paths are so uncertain and unknown it confuses you.

places are so big and unreachable it intimidates you…

but they say, that’s also where the golden pot of honey is. Sugar, syrup, all of the world’s sweetness lies out there, ironically where chaos also happens.

the world is so big…

like an ant, one single lifetime cannot do justice to what’s really out there.

and so this little ant trudges along the field of grass…

knowing there is more.

knowing something awaits…

i am that ant, amongst billions.

i am desperate to experience it all.

i want to have it all.

i am longing to be bigger than myself. maybe…

i am in thirst for meaning and reasoning.

maybe..

all im searching for is a deep awakening to who i really am.

maybe.

what i really seek is infinity.

~Mirrah

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cartoon t shirt

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t’s funny how time pasts in a split second when i look back in hindsight.

I came across my old tshirt. i feel so nostalgic. Like, i miss the little carefree girl who dreams about being a princess and wearing pretty pink dresses. But when she’s at home she immediately puts on a cartoon tshirt just because those dresses are so itchy and uncomfortable no matter how pretty they look.

it’s weird how… if i brought my 6 year old self next to my 16 year old self, we would be completely different identities… little me would never understand why i ever worry or get anxious about the future. She just wants to play with barbie dolls and wipe out the minature army of her brother’s green plastic soldiers.

she just wants to talk to her imaginary cartoon friends in the toilet while she’s pooping, or wonder why her hair will never be straight like it is in the shower.

i feel completely nostalgic.

like that part of me is somewhere stuck in time.

that part of me that just knows how to be.

that never has to feel the burden of expectations…

or the pressure of being perfect.

or worrying whether she will be successful or not.

she doesn’t even know how the world works. she doesn’t even know she doesn’t know that.

she is purely in presence, and having fun, and building fortresses with sofa pillows with her cousins.

the future doesn’t exist for her at all.

it’s just so funny how much we can’t relate to each other anymore.

& sometimes i wish i could be her again, over anyone i have ever wished to be.

~Mirrah

24.10.17

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the frog story

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some days life can be a huge contradiction.

you know sometimes when you are feeling so high, and you feel like you can rule the world and those moments when you know for sure that life is grand and awesome.

and then those moments when you crash from that high and feel so low like you have never known.

It’s like, when you’re in that high, you feel like you can conquer anything.

but when rubber meets the road, you realize it isn’t the case at all.

the low feels like you’re a frog in a well that can never dream of knowing what exists beyond the grey cold bottom.

and then when you realize you were born with frog legs for a reason!

so you could jump.

and so you jump, and jump and jump.

and with each jump you realize a new strategy.

until with that one jump that you enter the world again!

And it’s so beautiful you forget what it ever felt like to be in the damp mouldy end of hopelessness.

it feels like you got amnesia and you start jumping with so much happiness and light, and you start seeing the brightness of life, and the beauty of the stars at night.

Until one day, you come across a moss infested circular grey stone. you peer over the edge and get curious of what’s down there.

so you jump, and you hit rock bottom again.

the cycle repeats.

and that is what we call life.

~mirrah

24.10.2017

Feeling doubtful of yourself? You HAVE to do this now…

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It’s super easy to fall into the rabbit hole of “I’m never good enough for the world.”

No matter how many good things happen, you seem to fall back in the same spot of insecurity. Your mind is giving 101 reasons why you suck, like a broken record.

Let’s be real; you can’t be positive 24/7. I’ve tried it before, and realise it was just emotional suppression of “forced positivity”.

However, being drowned by negativity is suffocation.

It takes guts to face scary thoughts, and not fake emotions. At the same time, it takes work not to believe everything your brain tells you.

I used to believe every thought I think.

For example.

If I had to do a task, and my brain suddenly says, “But you’re not skilled enough to do this.”

I’d believe my thoughts, and won’t bother trying.

The scary part is that I wasn’t even aware of it! It was purely an unconscious behavioural pattern.

Now, here’s what I’ve learnt about Self-Doubt that might scare you a little…

1. Doing the same thing over and over again.
Self-Doubt is a habit. Babies aren’t born to hate themselves; it’s a learned behaviour they pick growing up. This means, most of your actions are actually on auto pilot… Your life is essentially you doing the same things over and over again without you knowing it.

2) Awareness breaks the curse.
Habits don’t break magically. I wasn’t aware that I was always doubting myself coz I was so used to it… What are the things you are so used to thinking, that you don’t even realise it? The only way I transformed my life, was the AWARENESS that I was continually thinking negative thoughts about myself.

3) Never believe every thought you think. The brain is very good at convincing us… we are living in our own heads after all.

4) Intentionally praise yourself. Surprisingly, praises can be uncomfortable to receive because deep down, you may not feel like you deserve it. However, I made it a HABIT that whenever I go into self-doubt, I question my thoughts and acknowledge all the good things about myself.

—These are the Life Skills that has drastically changed my life as a Teen Entrepreneur, and I hope this helps you too.—

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What are u afraid of? 

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What are You afraid of doing? 
For me, it’s putting my thoughts on video.. or sharing them in general. it makes me feel vulnerable because it’s like i’ve just showcased a mini part of my mind, and when you get to know someone’s inner reality, it allows for connection, or for judgement. 
We live in a world where no 2 people think the same way. That’s the uniqueness of perception, but that very difference has created separation between the two polarities. We are attached to our idea of truth, and we will go lengths to defend it. 
I do that all the time. ALL the time, especially when I hold onto a new concept, a new realisation, I have a tendency of revolving my whole focus on that one way of thinkking,(until of course i realise it’s just one way of thinking)

 and then  what was Liberating now becomes Limiting… So i understand why we become so attached to the lense at which we see Life… because our Ego cannot exist without an identity backbone.. 
But Judgement. The fear of being judged. 
Everyone has that fear. Yet everyone does that to other people. 
It’s the irony and hypocrisy of humans. 
I Judge. A lot. and when i catch myself doing that, my brain freezes for a moment. 
It’s like my boundaries have to be re-evaluated… because what judgements are are just boundaries that separate. But where i get confused is when that is a good thing, and when that actually becomes toxic to the mind. 
But this all comes down to the psychology of Projection: 
What I see in you 

is what I see in me. 

And what i see in me, was what others had seen in me during the developmental stages of my unconscious (from birth to 8 years old usually)
So the things that i’m not okay with about myself, will likely present itself in another person… this happened to me the other day, when someone was being unfair to me.. but i realised that i had treated another person with that exact same unfairness. 
It’s like Karma. what goes around really does come around to stun you. Like a huge fat mirror. 
So essentially. what i’m really trying to say is: 
I’m afraid of People Mirrors. i’m afraid of being mirrored back all the things i hate about myself. 
So maybe that’s why we get so afraid to be seen. Because we’re afraid that the things we tell ourselves get amplified for the anyone in the world to see. 
~Mirrah~ 
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where will you be 8 years from now? 

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“I gave myself 8 years to Do It” 

The BILLION Dollar Idea~ Nick Woodman, Founder of Go Pro 

“When I was 22 years old, I promised myself that I would work my tail off till the age of 30, at the minimum, to succeed as an entrepreneur.” 
Nick failed 2 start-ups before Go Pro, which he started in 2004. In 8 years, it became a 500 Million Dollar Company. Today, It is worth more than 3 BILLION. 
This video made me wanna start my 8 year Journey. 

(The Epiphanies it gave me I just felt like tattooing all over my memory) 
When I was 9, I wondered how long 10 years would feel like. Now, it’s been 7 years. This makes me realise how FAST 7 years zipped right in front of my eyeballs.

But what this taught me, is to realise the power in years. The confirmation, that Now is the best time to start, even with all my insecurities, even with all my doubts and fears. Wondering where 8 years will lead me; the power of looking forward when things just don’t always turn out as expected. I anchor myself into the future in that way…

Yesterday, Sam Choo pointed out to me that I’m not an “aspiring” entrepreneur. I AM an entrepreneur, who is finding my path, searching to build something More for myself. What that something is, I don’t quite know yet. 

But till then, I’ll learn what I can learn now, by dipping my tippy toes into new experiences, out of my comfort zone. My 8 years, officially start Today. To what? To where?? 

I guess I’ll find out. 

Right now, in the beginning of my 8-year Journey, is building my foundation. Learning to Move with Fear, Learning to Move with Uncertainty… I feel like right now, this is my biggest lesson. To be able to pick myself up when things don’t go my way. It’s the thing causing me the most anxiety as of right now, and the most excitement as well. The fear of how I will be preceived, how my thoughts will be received. 
But despite that fear is also the sacredness of what I am writing, almost as if these are seeds I am planting, and I will see them grow in the next 8 years. Maybe it’ll be a Pineapple… Or an Apple.. Or a pen. I dont know. And it’s like I’m teaching myself to see the beauty in not knowing. 
And in a weird way I feel like my Future-Self is reaching out to me, nudging me straight into my fears, and then me coming out of it, a little shaken up like a shivering traumatized cat. 
But as I’m writing this now, I feel a strange comfort. 
It’s like “in order for something new to be built, a complete destruction of the old has to take place”. I’m not sure who said that… But it applies well to me right now. 
I could feel like I’m in a process where all my limiting beliefs are manifesting themselves, reflecting back at me eye to eye, trigerring in me a panic that calls for resolution.  
It feels like a major Rebirth, like the thoughts in my brain are rewiring themselves. Reconfiguring. Shifting gears, coming to terms that maybe the way it has been consuming the world for the duration it did, is no longer relevant. 
So this is my 8 year challenge for myself. 8 years (and more) of constantly rebuilding who I am. 8 years of working on my dreams, and then realising other goals and dreams I may have.  8 years of going for what I want, and understanding that it’s Okay if what I want changes. And 8 years of Learning, Unlearning, Relearning. 

So to the 24 year old me who is reading

 this, it’s all work in progress. I’ll meet you when I get there 😉 

💛Mirrah

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Depression and Expression

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The Inner Artist within us presents itself in these two polarities: Expression and Depression. 

Watch yesterday’s Live “Your Inner Artist”: http://buff.ly/2lrXrth
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~Mirrah 

#WtfZenThoughts

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You know what these pictures make me realise? The fact that the world is just like our unconscious… It is filled with things that we don’t know we don’t know. And that shatters my current perspective…. in an exciting and scary(very scary) way. Because I get so caught up in my own thoughts and my reality, that I tend to forget the vastness that exists. 

And that creates this yearning for something completely new. 

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Looking-Glass Self Theory

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​I watched Kak Azlin Malik ‘s live video, where she talked about the deep reasons why we care what other people think of us. In it, she mentioned a very subconscious tactic our mind uses to perceive our outside world. It reminded me of a video by Jason Silva. It’s fascinating. And once you read this you’ll never see your reality the same way again. 
Looking-Glass Self Theory. A concept that will make you rethink your whole identity.
Are you really who you think you are? Do you know who you are? Who are you?
When you read that, your brain pauses for a while. Some of you might ponder upon that question for a while, while some others might immediately come up with an answer. 
“I’m Karoline”

“I’m a teacher”

“I’m a smurf”

“I’m a Harry Styles lover”

“I’m a carrot enthusiast”
 Your brain immediately comes up with its attachments, identifications and labels of self. Do note that the word “attachments” and “identifications” often get a bad rep, but they simply show you how you perceive yourself; ie. You identify yourself as your name. 
Some of them are plain observations, nothing particularly conflicting. 
However, your outlook of yourself is more subconscious than you think. You may not even be aware of some very predominant and adamant proclamations of the Ego. For example, someone might consciously say that they want to be famous, however deep within there is a belief that “I don’t want to be seen because I will be rejected, etc etc”

Or someone might say that they want money, but then subconsciously avoiding it because of their deep belief “I have to be humble, and money makes me arrogant, or people who make money are evil because they take away from others etc etc.”

 (All Ego means is how you see yourself and the world around you. For this read, drop the idea of Ego being a bad thing, because all it is is the mechanics behind : Why we do what we do. )
But where does this come from? 
The answer is simple: Looking-Glass Self  Theory
You are not who you think you are.

 

You are not who others think you are.
You are what you think others think of you.
Our brains have primitive instincts, and one of our very core human need is connection. We are a social species. So other people’s approval is crucial to our survival according to our amygdala (functions to process emotions, found in the brain).   This article shows the chemical reactions that take place in your brain when you get rejected : http://bit.ly/2jmsrr5
That’s why “You are the average of your 5 friends”. Influence is ubiquitous. And that’s why our minds are highly impressionable. 
For example, if you were born in a society that believes purple is evil, you will likely grow up believing it until you can be convinced that it is not necessarily true. Or if the people around you identify you as “Smart”, “Stupid”, “Polite”, “Aggressive”, or whatever it may be, you will believe that too! 
The thoughts we have about ourselves are just self-concepts. Whatever you perceive of yourself is what you think other ppl think of you, and that is based of how you were treated in the past. But how other people see you/treated you is also how they see themselves, which was also caused by how others had seen them!!!!

 Can you spot this domino effect we have on each other?
It makes me think; some parts of who we are is just a persona created so as to meet up to the expectation of the world around us. And in that process we accept the parts of us that is acceptable, and hide that which is disdainfully looked down upon. It creates a split between who we really are, what we want and what we have to be to fit in. 
Written by : Mirrah Irdina 
 Video credits to : Jason Silva 

What am I? 

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​I just had a weird thought… 
We are made out of cells. 
Every part of us is made out entirely of cells, and cells are made out of atoms. Because atoms have their own properties and chemical tendencies, it’s almost like they have a mind of their own. We cannot control what they do, or react with. 
Thus, that means

 we are separate from our cells = we are not our cells 
So… that leaves me with this: 
Since i could disassemble every cell of my body, I am thus not it. I am not my hair, I am not my skin, not my brain, I am not my organs, since they can be removed from me anytime. 
So.. what am I?